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From the author of the best-selling Women, a stirring account of disenfranchised grief and queer reawakening
Book Title
Trying
Subtitle
A Memoir
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- “Chloé Caldwell’s 2014 novella Women, about a woman falling in love with another woman for the first time, became a queer cult classic. In Trying, the writer again uses the fragmentary form, candor, and wit to study ‘the brain of someone trying to get pregnant.’. . . When another form of grief suddenly bursts into her life, it ultimately signals a rebirth.”—Jasmine Vojdani, Vulture
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If you’re writing about your life in real time, are you inherently fucked?
Over the years that Chloé Caldwell had been married and hoping to conceive a child, she’d read everything she could find on infertility. But no memoir or message board reflected her experience; for one thing, most stories ended with in vitro fertilization, a baby, or both. She wanted to offer something different.
Caldwell began a book. She imagined a selective journal about her experience coping with stasis and uncertainty. Is it time to quit coffee, find a new acupuncturist, get another blood test? Her questions extended to her job at a clothing boutique and to her teaching and writing practice. Why do people love equating publishing books with giving birth? What is the right amount of money to spend on pants or fertility treatments? How much trying is enough? She ignored the sense that something else in her life was wrong that was not on the page . . . until she extracted a confession from her husband.
Broken by betrayal but freed from domesticity, Caldwell felt reawakened, to long-buried desires, to her queer identity, to pleasure and possibility. She kept writing, making sense of her new reality as it took shape. With the candor, irreverence, and heart that have made Caldwell’s work beloved, Trying intimately captures a self in a continuous process of becoming—and the mysterious ways that writing informs that process.
Over the years that Chloé Caldwell had been married and hoping to conceive a child, she’d read everything she could find on infertility. But no memoir or message board reflected her experience; for one thing, most stories ended with in vitro fertilization, a baby, or both. She wanted to offer something different.
Caldwell began a book. She imagined a selective journal about her experience coping with stasis and uncertainty. Is it time to quit coffee, find a new acupuncturist, get another blood test? Her questions extended to her job at a clothing boutique and to her teaching and writing practice. Why do people love equating publishing books with giving birth? What is the right amount of money to spend on pants or fertility treatments? How much trying is enough? She ignored the sense that something else in her life was wrong that was not on the page . . . until she extracted a confession from her husband.
Broken by betrayal but freed from domesticity, Caldwell felt reawakened, to long-buried desires, to her queer identity, to pleasure and possibility. She kept writing, making sense of her new reality as it took shape. With the candor, irreverence, and heart that have made Caldwell’s work beloved, Trying intimately captures a self in a continuous process of becoming—and the mysterious ways that writing informs that process.
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Upcoming Events
Chloé Caldwell reading and in conversation with Leslie Jamison about TRYING at P&T Knitwear
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This is a ticketed in-store event with limited amphitheater-style seating. Doors open at 6:30 PM and the program will begin at 7:00 PM. Cost of a $5 general admission ticket can be applied towards your purchase of Trying or any product in our café the night of an event. Book bundle tickets are also available. Click here to reserve your tickets.
Praise
“This infertility memoir ends with rebirth: Caldwell’s new, energized sense of herself. An intimate, engaging memoir.”—Kirkus Reviews
- “[Caldwell’s] husband’s transgressions jolt the narrative off its axis, and Caldwell recounts the dizzying liberation of rediscovering her queerness after her divorce. . . . For readers grappling with similar questions about motherhood, sexuality, and the meaning of a life well-lived, it’s a gift.”—Publishers Weekly
- “The queen of irreverence and confessionalism Chloé Caldwell . . . gives readers a wide-eyed look at her life in a time of great uncertainty. With tenderness, humility, curiosity, and familiarity that readers have come to expect from Caldwell, her latest memoir is a touching and liberating look into identity, fertility, and becoming.”—Felicia Reich, Paste Magazine
- “A focus on language runs like a gold thread through Trying, Caldwell’s most condensed, structured, and technically interesting book.”—Valerie Stivers, The Brooklyn Rail
